Trials, the beginning.

Okay, this is just ridiculous but i could no longer resist the temptation to share my two days experience sitting behind a desk with stationeries and white blank sheets. The anticipation, the excitement, the disappointment. I think i just waved my white flag. For i have done nothing but cause such big shame and regret i could just vanish and leave to a vast island without the need of education. Or having to write such long essays, perhaps.

For the first time ever, i was not ready to sit for the english paper. The timing wasn't right. I was too in the mood of the holiday spirit that i have thought nothing but my assumption that i can do too well. My confidence has brought nothing but sheer disappointment and shame.

My dream of obtaining a scholarship has sailed away. I think i have just lost the foundation to securing a well-paid job. But God is good. And i trust in Him. If this failure has a turning point.

Day one was a terror, followed by day two.

I cannot imagine the later days.